It was at the six-week mark when the “new mom high” wore off and the immense worry set in. After having strictly fed my daughter breast milk, my supply reduced by more than half from one day to the next. Then suddenly I couldn’t produce milk at all. I worried I was turning out to be an unfit mother. Enter postpartum anxiety.

“Did my body give up on me? How am I supposed to connect with my daughter? She’s going to miss out on all the nutrients I worked so hard to build during my pregnancy. I feel so worthless. What am I supposed to tell the million people who asked me why I stopped, even though it wasn’t my choice? I feel like a bad mother.”

I really didn’t think it would be this hard to return to work, especially since I prayed for almost a year and went to great lengths to find the perfect nanny – someone that would make the transition seamless. But it’s not seamless. Not for me.

If you've been following my family and I for a while, you know that we're quite the artsy farts, so taking Ava Luna to see art was kind of a no brainer. Besides that, she LOVES high contrast images and patterns, and they are actually good for babies! Find out why. 

Watch part two of a three-part birth series where I get in depth about my first labor and delivery experience, how I "sped my labor up," whether I got the epidural or not, and LABORLAND – what is it?

Watch part one of a two-part birth series where I break down my entire pregnancy, from how we found out we were expecting, to how I felt every trimester physically and mentally, down to what shoes saved my super swollen feet. 

After 19.5 hours of labor, our tiny human is here. I can't believe I get to be her mom.

When we use crystals or stones in our self-care practices, vibrational healing ignites. So Sunday morning calls for a crystal belly meditation to calm both me and Baby Mewy from the inside out.

We walked into our baby shower and died. Not literally, but my make-up sure did because I cried possibly the entire evening. Details on our damn-near perfect day...and our HUGE announcement during our thank you speech. 

June 3, 2017 was the second greatest day of our lives. For more reasons than one. We have a pretty emotional af video to last us a lifetime of tears. Grab a tissue and watch it with us?

Fun fact: The day I found out I was pregnant was one of the most rollercoaster, weird, not-so-happy days of my life. My mom quickly brought me back down to earth.